Really though, if you're feeling depressed and lonely, all your woes will disappear come birthday time. Because your family, friends, acquaintances, colleagues and everyone else who remembered your birthday will acknowledge it and greet you. It's like for one day, your invisibility cloak is removed and people start to notice you.
My birthday this year has been full of drama. A lot of my plans didn't push through and I found myself getting really sad about it. It's just that I feel like I always have to exert so much effort for my birthday. I have to plan everything myself. I have to buy my own cake, buy my own candles, buy a dress, plan my party, etc, etc. It's all me. The problem is, everything that could go wrong, went wrong.
I have to accept though that things are different now. I must learn to stand up on my own and find a way to make things work. Of course it won't be as perfect; of course, I must exert more effort now; but it doesn't mean things will not work out well in the end.
If there is anything that my birthday this year has taught me, it is that at the end of the day, I am very much loved. Yes, things may not work out as perfectly as I want it, and some people will always get on my nerves but it's no reason to be depressed. I am loved.
From here on forward, I vow never to sulk again come my birthday time. I don't need to plan anything, all things will fall into place in the right time. God always knows when to send the right people and the right events to make me happy :)
When things go haywire,
Remember that you are.
And will always be
LOVED.
Red dress - Oxygen
Red, blue & white wedges - Tiva by FILA
Pink ballerina flats - Solemate
I'm so proud of you and I admire your strength, dearie. Power huuug!
ReplyDeleteWe both feel the same about Christmases and birthdays. ;) Oh, and I loved your Harry Potter reference. Hihi.
Thank you dearie! Wait, anong Harry Potter reference?? hahaha! I don't read Potter!
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